Need advise. Is nursing really for me?

Good evening, and thank you for reading this. I’m losing all hope in trying to get into nursing school, I’m in my 30s, have 3 children age ranges from 14, 10, and 2. I’m done with all my prerequisites from community college (My science class have hit the 10 year mark), I have taken the TEAS 3 times. Applied to 4 different nursing schools and have not gotten into. I also work in the hospital also as a Patient care technician for the past 12 years. I’ve always wanted to be a nurse but I just don’t know anymore. I’m lost, confused, just losing my motivation and don’t know what I should do now. I live in Southern California. Thanks so much for reading.